“Will You never turn Your gaze away from me,
Nor let me alone until I swallow my spittle?
“Have I sinned? What have I done to You,
O watcher of men? – Job 7:19-20
“Mary Magdalene came, announcing to the disciples, “I have seen the Lord,” and that He had said these things to her.” – John 20:18
In both Job and the Gospel, we see the anguish of man’s heart. Job describes his suffering, and wonders why God doesn’t end his misery. He does not understand why this is happening to him, not finding any guilt on his part. And so he has no choice but to wait in his suffering. In the Gospel of John, Mary Magdalene is unconsolable as she weeps at the tomb of Jesus. The last thirty-six hours were unimaginable, the anguish of watch Him whom she loved endure humiliation, suffering, and a cruel death. Unlike Job, she finds relieve from her pain in the announcement of the angels, and ultimately, in seeing the Risen Lord.
We do not know why God allows suffering, apart from reflecting on the Cross of Christ. When we take time in meditating on the Cross, and become intimate in Jesus’ suffering, we find ourselves more able to endure the disappointments and sorrows of our life. We can choose to unite our suffering with that of Christ, and in doing so we grow more into the image and likeness of Christ, a sign for the modern world which chooses to deflect its pain and trouble.
Today, let us place whatever it is we are struggling through at the foot of the Cross, and bear our burden in the light of the Resurrection and the gift of the Holy Spirit, who came to be our consolation, and strengthening, until we too come face to face with the Risen Lord.
May God bless you.